Ugh. They are soooo confusing. Shaun and I had already broke up and I am so tired of his nonsense! lol. But I've got a huge story here and its kinda long so try to follow XD.

This whole week so far has been really strange. It seems like its been really long because a lot of stuff has happened in the past few days.

Shaun and I broke up about a week ago for the millionth time and I was kinda sad about it but I was trying to get over him, and it was actually working pretty well.

I hungout with my best guy friend for like three days in a row and it was fun. It was keeping my mind off of shaun and me and my best friend were getting kinda close. The first night was a sunday, me and mike and robert hungout and went to the movies and it was a little lame but monday was memorial day and we had the school day off so we planned to have some random people to come over to my house cause my parents werent home.

They came over on monday and we drove my fourwheelers to pick up Travis and then Emily came over too. We just chilled and it was fun. Things were getting weird between me and Rob though. We have been really good friends for about two years, but we were being like really flirty. He kept like holding my hand and stuff and I thought that I was getting feelings for him. I never imagined myself liking him; he wasn't really my "type" and I had kinda thought of him as a "brother", but defiantly not now.

I didn't know what to think because I didnt know if he had feelings for me like that and I didnt really want to talk to him about it. I didnt want to ruin our friendship because we have been really close. My friend Shyanne talked to him on Tuesday (the next day) and somehow my name came into the conversation. He told her that he actually did like me and she told him that I thought I might like him too but I wasnt sure. She told me all of what he said to her and she said he was being really sweet too.

I hungout with him that Tuesday night too. It was mike, robert and I. Again me and Robert flirted a lot and he didn't know that Shy told me what he said, so I didnt say anything about it. Everything was weird to me. I started to realize that I really did like Robert but I didn't know what to do.

Wednesday (yesturday) I talked to him about it. I was texting him and I said "I think I like you". He said that he liked me too, but he didnt think we would be good in a relationship. I said okay and he said but idk, maybe something will happen. We didn't text after that for a while because he was at the river. All of a sudden Shaun called me. He begged for me back and apologized for all of the nonsense. I promised me he would never do anything like that again and he really does like me. But I don't know what to believe. I dont know who to go for. Cause Robert was texting me after that saying that I dont need to worry about shaun cause i have him and I think we could end up talking or something. I don't know. Ugh.

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Haha. Im a loser.
But some of my friends and I were talking about sex the other day. Im not really sure how we got on the subject lol anyways...we were talking about our veiws on sex before marriage and stuff like that. I'm a Christian and I know that you're not supposed to have sex before marriage because its a sin but I really don't understand what the big deal about it is. Yeah I'm young and I guess I shouldn't be concerned about this or whatever, but I just don't understand. Why is it wrong to have sex before marriage?

A lot of my friends have already had sex. I know, I know "people your age shouldn't even be THINKING about sex! you're too young! blah, blah, blah." I don't get it. Its so stupid. I am still a virgin, but two of my friends who arent have told me that after the first few times, it doesnt even matter any more and you don't understand why people make such a big deal out of it. Idk. Me and my boyfriend haven't had sex, but if the opportunity came up one day, Idk what I would do...





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He makes me happy =]

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This is the 4rth time XD

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